alone with responsibility

And who knows how to talk about it?

And who would bother?

 

On The Rock,

surrounded by ocean,

on a molten ball of dirt,

hurling through space and nothing.

 

This line won't matter.

 

There's a flow to life,

and anxiety scares you into

a lovely, hidden reality of near-death,

when you know you could jump into the breach,

turn your steering wheel in a complete one-eighty,

and embrace the anti-infinity by choice.

 

There are two choices in life you don't make:

Birth and Death,

you are responsible for every other mistake and success.

 

Of course,

you'll lie through your

gritted, stupid, little teeth,

about all the people who wronged you,

and why things didn't go as planned but,

nobody believes it,

they agree to be nice.

 

Your life is your own;

you fail alone,

succedd alone,

and die alone.

 

Life is a selfish act,

and our cages prevent connections.

 

 

love of self

 

Insanity is an interesting follower;

it stalks you like thoughts of death,

or a jealous ex-lover on Facebook,

though less aggressive than the last.

 

There is no rush for death or insanity,

they will visit us all some day,

and when they sink their teeth in,

I imagine it's permanent.

 

Imagine something being permanent,

in this world where even love decays and hollows out,

and eternal is beyond comprehension.

 

Imagine love as it was meant to be,

romantic,

innocent,

unconditional,

we're not strong enough to love,

unless it's a love of self.

 

Look around you,

endless self-promotion,

meaningless back-patting,

and barely any words of meaning;

what do you think this poem is?

 

If we wish to fight against the growing distance,

between us and the people we could love,

we must first battle with ourselves,

and understand our failure.

 

We will look past our too-easily-hurt pride,

our limping-but-still-alive modesty,

or will we just see our powerful egos?

 

Will we change,

for the better?

 

Of course we won't,

but the thought is nice.