Marching on a road of bones

I Rolled out of bed after laying awake for hours, before any sleepy dreams called my mind home.
Something was picking at my brain, mixing together with my anxiety over Cambrian’s soccer camp opening tomorrow afternoon. I retraced my night to pin-point the issue. I hadn’t felt quite right after hanging out with the boys this evening.
This weekend saw one of my all-time-favourite trips take place, a short stop-over in the little town of Blind River. The traveling team I assembled was flawless, if only because all of their flaws countered another member’s flaws perfectly. It was well-balanced, to put it simply.
I tried to explain the trip to a group of my other friends this evening, and failed. We spoke about the funny stories, and drunken memories, but never seemed to hit the core of the experience at all. We barely made contact with the head of the nail.
What was it that made that trip such a success, and this night out so different?
Maybe it was the people invited. The trip to Blind River boasted Andre, Kyle, Jason, aside from Ed and myself who were at both outings. All three are well-rounded individuals, while Andre brings an unexplainable aura of fun when he is around. The difference couldn’t be that simple however.
Tonight’s cast was comprised of the Justins, and John, a group of people that can be quite fun no doubt. I’ve shared many great memories with all of these gentlemen, so what was different? It would be easy to say that the element of going on a trip, and attending a party while on said trip, would be the deciding factors. This would be a grave mistake, despite stereotypes about how 20-somethings have fun. I realized tonight that the most enjoyable part of the entire trip was the conversation on the way up, and on the way home, which is not to say the rest of the trip was poor, because it wasn’t in the least.
In both cases, the success of the event pended on the conversation. It is worth noting that I’ve had solid conversations with every person who attended the events. Conversation was an overwhelming success on the Blind River trip, why did it feel so forced and poor tonight?
The main focuses of the Blind River conversation were sex, relationships, party stories, each individual’s hoped-for future (including school, which city to live in, and which profession to work in), and films. The conversation at the Buddha centered around careers (journalism, credit-managing mainly), what-we’ve-been-up-to-lately, films, which cities would be interesting to live in, and whether or not Sudbury is a good place to live. Neither conversation was particularly deep or thoughtful, but a sense of fulfillment was gained from the BR conversation.
Both atmospheres were conducive to conversation, so why did the conversation at the Buddha stagnate? I believe it was the conversations about work. Granted, the topic of work came up on the BR drive, but the tone was mightily different. The Buddha conversation included in-depth conversations about the processes involved in one’s work, the sacrifices one had to make at work, and whether or not one’s job was enjoyable. The BR conversation involved none of these work-related topics, because work was covered in a brief fashion. Is the long, drawn-out conversation about work them reason the Buddha conversation died? Not fully.
The main reason I can grasp why the conversation at the Buddha failed was simple: it represented a giving-away of the freedom that comes with working and living as separate entities, rather than living to work.
It would be far too easy to declare that being in a career automatically involves sacrifices your freedom to live your life, and enjoy your life. The soul-draining explanations of careers was enough to make me second guess the whole careers thing, like those drunk driving commercials where mangled brains are hanging from the windshield. How could anything beat down someone’s soul so much, especially without them noticing? Whereas one of my corporate friends had told me ‘he hated his job, but it was a pay-cheque,’ a few short months ago, tonight he declared ‘he actually likes his job,” just after explaining how it has a tendency to gauge the ordinary man in order to turn a profit.
My friend was quite content to tell us he hit his sales quota last month, for the first time, just before dropping that bomb, which brings me to a related story. It was also mentioned tonight that Vale Inco will be using ‘scab’ labour during the strike, which we all agreed was a bad thing. I recently had a conversation with a Vale executive and his wife. His wife was asking him about what he was going to do when he had to cross the picket line, and he replied, with a grin on his face, ‘I’m just going to smile and walk through.’
The journalist who brought up the Vale news was content with his job, but lamented that he had to work 40 hours a week anywhere, which is an understandable complaint. When you think about it, 40 hours a week is a long time to sacrifice out of one week. You figure you should sleep 8 hours a night, which automatically takes away 40 hours out of your week for sleep. Tack on another 45 for work and travel time to and from work, and you’ve already removed 85 hours from your week. You are left with a mere 35 hours a week for enjoyment. That’s a staggering statistic, especially if you consider most people aren’t as happy about their jobs as some of the people mentioned in this article.
I’m not trying to lecture anybody about how to life their lives, or what to make of themselves. I’m not trying to tell everybody to read the Situationalists and their ‘never work’ themed works, or to drop out of life and become a hippie. I just want to draw attention to the reality of wage slavery, as it’s been called. With that settled, I have an important question to ask: is it necessary for us to march on a road of human bones, in order for us to enjoy our careers?

My Brain is Plugged into the Internet

For several weeks, it has felt like my brain is plugged into the internet. I am rarely away from my computer for a span longer than a few hours. Usually this sort of behaviour means I’ve become highly addicted to a new video game, or created a new website, but that is not the case this time. This phase usually always leads to feelings of loneliness and isolation, but I find myself feeling quite the opposite lately. I began to use a Twitter account, and of course, my WordPress account, way more than before. It’s been an interesting, and mixed, experience. Through Twitter I found a way to keep up to date (up to the minute even), with most of my favourite topics of interest. These topics range from journalism, to soccer (hello @Thierry_Henry and @zlatans_offical), literature, films, friends, tweeting, blogging, hip hop (you’ve got to follow @chamillionaire, he constantly updates and tweets back to his fans), hockey, etc, etc, etc…
It is an interesting feeling to read posts by your favourite authors (hello @neilhimself, @MargaretAtwood and @gladwell), about the regular stuff they are up to. It’s great fun to have twitter exchanges with them as well. It’s been a very interesting way of keeping up to date. It brings the news cycle into your head it seems. It illustrates the power of the internet to run the newscycle. That being said, it’s time to discuss my favourite thing about Twitter; journalism.
Since joining up on Twitter, I have learned a phenomenal amount about modern day journalism. It’s a fairly well-established “fact” that journalism is dying, I thought. I had remained optimistic this was not the reality of the situation, but everywhere an aspiring journalist looked, doom glared back. Some journalists are claiming this is not the case however. I have had the fortune of finding some brilliant journalists(@wodekszemberg, @GenevieveKoski, @TAudette, @EdVeilleux) and aspiring journalists on Twitter (@lavrusik, @lindork), who have, in most cases, expanded my knowledge of journalism or opened up new content for me. Following Vadim Lavrusik’s twitter has been particularly enlightening for me in regards to how social media is affecting journalism, which makes sense considering he is a social media consultant amongst his vast array of skill sets. His Twitter provides constant links of interest for journalists, and has helped me understand the industry a hundred times better than I did before discovering his tweets. Thanks Vadim! I highly recommend following all of the listed tweets though, as well as any newspapers that interest you (I recommend NY Times,TorStar, Daily Beast, Exiled, The Tyee, New Statesman, Northern Life, and the Sudbury Star for sure). You will be brought up to speed quickly on the world around you.

When does a person hit their prime?

Today I had an interesting discussion, which led to many interesting discussions (naturally). The first discussion interested me because the topic of a person hitting their prime came up. When does a person hit their prime? In terms of looks, it was said to be 22 or 23. I didn’t quite agree with that. I think that people reach their full beauty in their 20s, but I’ve seen so many beautiful people in their 30s as well. I wasn’t concerned much with beauty anyways. I wanted the meat of it. If we were talking about physical prime, I want to know when people were their strongest. I felt it was in their late 20s, in concurrence with an Edmonton Aging Symposium video I had seen a few years back, along with the common soccer claim that soccer players hit their prime around 28 (yay Thierry Henry, you’re still in your prime for World Cup 2010 ;P.)
I was far more concerned with intellectual prime though, which is ridiculously difficult to narrow down. It would have to be sometime after the teenage years (obviously), but not so old that one’s brain begins to break down with age. The old age comment is difficult in itself.. not all people suffer from breakdowns as they get older. Some continue to nurse their brains, and never really fall into the whole dementia phase of old age. Aside from that, how do you measure when a human brain is at it’s best? Do you talk about scientific figures, and how much data can be stored, as opposed to how much is being forgotten? Do you discuss IQ scores and explicit knowledge? Or do you consider the mind to be the key thing? Do you consider how sharp-witted and intelligent a person is?
The answer seems to be quite complex. Most of the categories being discussed are subjective, such as beauty, intelligence, IQ scores, wit, and even the possession of knowledge (which schools have tried, and failed, to test for centuries). Subjectivity hinders any real accuracy with this conversation, and it’s down to each of us to decide what we feel a person’s prime is. Personally, I don’t see why somebody can’t be in their prime for their entire life, in a fashion.

A Discussion About Surveillance and Freedom

I was browsing the New Statesman’s website today, and came across an interesting article concerning freedom and surveillance, more specifically, what surveillance does to one’s personal freedom. The article is short, but it does a decent job comparing some of Sartre’s earlier philosophical works with that of Foucault’s works. The study also mentions Nineteen Eighty-Four , obviously. To check out the brief article, click here.

Once more unto the breach, dear friends, once more.

One more year left of post-secondary education for me. I’m filled with mixed feelings about that, ranging from unexplainable happiness to to complete indifference.
The though of being in a career has ups and downs, but overall it seems like a giant step forward after already completing four years of post-secondary education. The homework, vacant eyes, and condescension bore me after all these years. While the beautiful women, intellectual conversation (occasionally), and low-stress lifestyle are definite pluses.
I find myself in a situation where I am struggling to make sure I approach this year with motivation and confidence, but without ego and conceit. This task has been a difficult one for a number of reasons.
I am entering a writing program designed for second year college students, when I’ve already completed a four-year History degree with honours. Bill has made it a point to say that direct transfer haven’t exactly been God’s gift to journalism, and I hope to prove him wrong in some regards.
I am treating this last year as a war, hence the quote I used as my title (look it up, it’s Shakespeare). I’m going in to do my job, without wasting time, and lazing through another year of schooling. I am going to try at this course, for once in my life. I will conquer it, and push myself up out of this city hopefully. Destination unknown, but somewhere that isn’t here.
I hope you will all support me in this, my professional year of school.

What Journalism Means to Me

Journalism is not simply a profession. Journalism has a responsibility to the public as an information provider and government/corporate watch-dog.
There are so many journalists whose articles I read, that make me feel pity for them. They are complacent. They are nine-to-fivers, with no hunger for truth. Their passion died long ago, sucked out by the long-growing apathy inflicted to humans in a consumer society, or stomped out by their corporate publishers.
Something stirs inside of me, beckoning me to push forth into journalism, and raise it from the ashes, or at least find a haven where journalism hasn’t died completely. These publications do exist, but they are difficult to come by.
Reality is a factor. Journalists need to eat and live, just like any other human being, and that doesn’t come cheap. With the downsizing in the industry, and the “journalism is dying” fervor sweeping the industry, it becomes even more tempting to settle down with any journalism job you can claw your talons into. Then complacency strikes. Next thing you know, you’re retiring, having worked for the same publication for 30 years. It’s a possibility.
I don’t see this as my future. I see myself learning the finer points of the art from Cambrian’s program (ran by Bill and Erik, two intelligent and talkative journalism veterans), tweaking with my writing as an amateur working for a small to medium sized paper, and eventually moving up to a large paper, potentially in America or Europe.
Truth be told, I would love for my career in journalism to lead me into being an author as well, but that looks to be far over the horizon at the moment. Rest assured, the sunbeams are finding their way over the horizon, faintly, but noticeably.
Journalism is not meant for people without passion. It’s meant for people who want to shoulder the burden of being a truth-teller. Journalism is not just regurgitating facts, it is showing us our own humanity in a mirror, for better or worse. Journalists have to seek the truth, even if it leads to scary and unfriendly consequences.
Call me an idealist for portraying journalists as heroes, but that’s what they should be. Modern day journalism looks more in line with the corruption in society than the truth-telling, and that is not where it should be.
It’s easy to name-drop when it comes to the ideal journalists; Ed Murrow, Hunter S. Thompson, John Pilger, Noam Chomsky, Malcolm Gladwell. Not all of these men are responsible for hard-hitting political or social pieces, some are just phenomenal feature writers. These men show the diversity of journalism, and its ability to appeal to a wide variety of readers. I hope to see a revival in solid journalism, but am unconvinced by the apathy of many of the coming generations (my own included).
Dare to dream. Dare to hope. Dare to create.

Machine Men

In the process of living,
life itself is forgotten,
leading many to waste away,
their hours and days passing by,
without much care or notice.

Steel dust filtering through fingers,
that are coated in grease and oil,
too dirty to touch a lover,
without poisoning their body.

We are machine men;
with machine minds,
and machine hearts,
oil pumps inside of us.

August 8, 2009

Investing $20,000 and Four Years of my Life for a Piece of Paper: My Bachelors Degree Experience At Laurentian University

High-schoolers face many difficult decisions on their way to becoming graduates. Whether to enter the work force, attend university or college, or even travel, are among the most significant of these decisions. The guidance counselors and teachers at my high school, Sudbury Secondary School, pounded one fact inside of our heads; UNiversity was the place to go if you wanted to be successful. We were too young to notice their bias at the time, but it is fairly easy to guess they would give that advice considering every single one of them had attended university themselves. Granted, not everyone has a positive opinion of university education, but these individuals were all working fairly nice jobs after graduation, which naturally creates a bias.
I have a vastly different view of university education, when compared with that of the teachers and guidance counselors. I learned more from my own personal reading, than I did from my university courses over the span of the four years I roamed the campus in search of knowledge. When I say roamed, I mean it. I took a wide variety of courses in search of something special. My topics of studied ranged from my major, in history, to philosophy, religious studies, human geography, psychology, physical geography, and even six credits of biology.
In my first year philosophy course, which I took during my second year of university, I learned more philosophy from the books I read on my own time that were unassigned in class, such as Mill’s On Liberty, Camus’ The Fall, and Sartre’s Human Emotions and Existentialism, then I did from the lectures and assigned readings. The course was subtitled “The Study of Human Nature,” but there was very little about it that seemed human, or natural for that matter. My professor would stand up in front of us, and speak for well over an hour. He would occasionally try to ramp up participation by asking “what do you think of that?” as if that were a stimulating way to draw us out of our half-awake, half-asleep states, which he induced with his yawn-inspiring lectures.
Dry lectures are not the place to learn about human nature.
It would be unfair for me to claim this course was the perfect model to explain my in-class university experience. It was the norm however. I do recall fonder moments, such as delivering a seminar to my fellow students of Kuhlberg’s History of Northern Ontario in the pub. I sipped on beer in between pauses, rather than the more-oft used water, and some of my class-mates did more than just sip on their beverages. I also recall Hobb, his beard swinging as he shouted with his Crime and Punishment class, “hard economic times!!” in the middle of one of his lectures. He explained how he was sick of hearing about the recession in the news, and in his dealings with higher-ups at Laurentian.
These fun, and human stories, were few and far between. Their courses represented about 10% of my entire university degree. These two professors showcased what a solid university education could have been, but wasn’t.

The Beast!

Hobb e-mailed me recently and in the message he brought up a website related to The Exiled! Naturally, I checked out the website, and found it was extremely hilarious. The website is called The Buffalo Beast. Therefore I am passing the site address on to all of you, along with this passage from an article they wrote on the 50 most loathsome people in 2008:

“31. Stephenie Meyer

Charges: She’s the unforgivably perky Mormon mom who wrote the Twilight Series of books, currently draining IQ points from Western Civilization. This silly wank-off vampire fantasy for teenage girls has been embraced by legions of sad, middle-aged women who fight for access to their daughters’ sticky copies of the books. It’s an embarrassing spectacle for all Americans who aren’t actively participating in it. Meyer admits she can’t handle the better class of vampires and has never watched a whole vampire movie, even the more anemic kind: “I’ve seen little pieces of Interview with a Vampire when it was on TV, but I kind of always go YUCK! I don’t watch R-rated movies, so that really cuts down on a lot of the horror. And I think I’ve seen a couple of pieces of The Lost Boys, which my husband liked, and he wanted me to watch it once, but I was like, ‘It’s creepy!’”

Exhibit A: The hit movie version of Twilight, featuring Meyer’s dreary characters, a tiresome teenage girl and the pathetic “vegetarian” vampire who loves her, mooning around on first base for two hours and giving vampires everywhere a bad name.

Sentence: Meyer encounters a non-vegetarian vampire, who kills her immediately and gruesomely in front of an appreciative audience of horror film fans. ”

Hilarious 🙂