The value of saints

White walls were
are

always ruined by dirty finger prints
and

the bleach scrubdowns never made

any difference.

 

There’s a filthiness to living that no one

ever talks about or
mentions

we all just watch the slow decay of the fragile

innocence.

the moral middle of the road

Everyday is Halloween

as we dress up as sinners

or saints

when the reality

is somewhere in the middle.

 

None of us are as good

or as bad

as we paint ourselves

or people paint us to be.

 

We are all capable of great evil

and magnificient good

but none of us are clean of 

the other.

 

We pretend we are as good as we think

putting on masks and surrounding ourselves

with so many lies,

and half-truths even,

and the kind of friends that tell us how

special and amazing we are

and how we couldn't have been in the wrong.

 

And that's where the best of friends matter

to tell you you're an idiot

and that you made a serious mistake

or five

but you're still alright,

because you can always fight for redemption.

the pressure of boredom

Thinkers, 

decimated by boredom,

depression,

wonder where the

'something more'

is.

Pearly gates not just out of reach,

but out of sight,

even out of mind,

for many.

A pressure dances across my forehead,

pounces around my numb ears,

and boots me in between the eyes.

There will be no relief for the saints

sinners

or the dead.