empty thoughts,
replace a poem,
never published,
that's gone away now,
thanks Chrome.
empty thoughts,
replace a poem,
never published,
that's gone away now,
thanks Chrome.
An anxious energy shoots through my veins,
muscles, tendons, ligaments pulse; lightning,
firing through narrow tunnels filled with water,
propelling these tired, young bones into action.
Fists beat on concrete,
walls,
a scratch; no damage of note,
a chip,
of paint,
falls down,
smashing on the asphalt,
a thousand tiny pieces of,
neon orange,
from a picture of a Phoenix,
flames roaring, consuming;
you can't stop it.
Occasionally,
a new paint job,
is necessary,
and I live on,
shedding old, concrete-skin,
eroded by sunlight and wind,
even some of your rain,
do you remember the weathering affect,
of all your difficulty and indecision?
I don't;
I shed that memory,
with the old paint-job.
Every touch,
a piece of heart,
a lonely pair,
with a new start.
Prophets didn't write it down,
a new beginning, a new town,
a fresh filter for my thoughts,
throw the old ones to the dogs.
I watch the sun rise over hills,
you populated with poison quills,
but will roam around no longer.
My strength returns slowly;
my eye catches a ray of sun,
a ray of hope,
a new dawn.
Infused with energy,
a smile spreads across my face like cancer,
the chances of its survival are the same,
or maybe not this time.
Optimism fights with reality,
a spear tipped with malice and distrust,
swinging like a welterweight in the first,
occasionally biting crimson,
but often slicing air alone;
the battle will end somehow.
Everything ends,
somehow.
I met her somewhere,
when life was happening,
and she was in between the lines,
the only place where I knew how to read.
There's a broken piece of the past,
floating around in your distant future
awkwardly lodged into your present;
it brings with it a series of,
ridiculous notions,
a time for,
rebirth brought on by,
death,
a new chance.
An old life,
breathes again,
stronger,
fiercer than before,
it's hollowed out,
and the holes feed the fire.
There's paper tigers,
and paper champions,
but I never heard about,
all of the paper ghosts.
Their soft, word-down exteriors,
only matched by empty souls, begging,
for validation and a new existence,
finding only shit and piss,
and settling for the sewers.
Your soul was rotten,
and died long ago;
I remember,
don't you?
Failure,
eighty-two stories high,
and stacking even higher,
nobody will build your Lego failure with you,
I'm bored, he's ill-equipped,
and everyone else got out of town,
when they saw the change happening.
No one waits for a one-sided conversation,
or the broken light pouring out of a dim bulb,
that used to shine as bright as the noon sun.
Fading fast,
but not fast enough,
it would seem.
A pale horse is a better visage,
than the one of pale whores,
you were well-known for;
lack of stamina
diseased
worn-out
left in the
cold
finally lonely
stories always end
there
life never does.
The lonely hours,
after conversation died,
crawl through my ears;
a vacant, dead space.
Something shimmers,
ghosts just out of sight;
a chilling memory,
a phantom feeling,
or a brief hallucination.
The quiet hours,
where transport trucks pass,
filled with the tools to stupify a nation,
or the liquid to smother, choke, burn life.
The dead hours,
a piece of sanity chips away,
under the chisel of self-doubt,
falling down an endless drain,
leaking with earwigs, sewer bugs,
and all the poison memories
of the ones who got away.
Toxic aftermath,
an east-side story with west-side actors,
believe the hype, smoke and mirrors,
it's the best you'll get in the theatre of life.
The sound of fake birds thunder overhead,
above all of the fake mustangs and jaguars;
only the crunch of bone and pain is real now.
Haven't remembered my dreams in weeks,
there's been nothing worth remembering,
you've managed to slip away from them,
there's nothing you were resembling.
And that's the life of it,
and what happens by the death of it,
always trying hard,
always suffering a split,
in your guilty conscience,
maybe I was obnoxious,
and maybe you never tried,
hard enough,
to prevent the greatest loss,
so grimey and well-stuck in,
you couldn't prevent the deterioration with floss,
and constant brushing, of your teeth,
more appropriately, fangs,
you sucked the life out of me,
but i kicked you away in the nick of time,
the hero never dies,
at least not without coming back;
unexplainable life through a time-stream,
or I'm-better-than-Jesus resurrection dream.
And I was better, and definitely still am,
because I'd never abandon you,
or pretend I existed in a fake book,
with fake people, living a fake life,
floating on a boat that became symbolic,
of people's dreams;
forgotten after they led them somewhere else,
ungrateful, but thats the way humans are,
we don't care what brought us there,
after a trip, nobody thanks their car,
and maybe we should,
or at least the vehicle's engineers,
if not its inventors, who brought us the technology,
just don't take a look at the product's toxicology,
and the way it's destroying what really matters.
But we never look behind the curtain,
there's too much risk and work involved,
we only want you to bring us the riddle,
if it's a Sherlock-problem, sure to be solved,
and that's the way our dreams dissolved,
when there was nothing left to boggle us,
and keep us guessing and hoping,
because hope and guesswork died with the dreams,
or maybe it was vice versa.
Nothing is certain, and nothing is eternal,
humanity doesn't understand the permanent,
because our relationships aren't,
and neither are our lives,
bbut maybe our souls are,
or at least our presence,
and I'm not talking social media,
or even the famous, and encyclopedia Brittanica;
nothing lasts.
I would say it's better that way,
because it makes life feel more important,
that's a suggestion from Dorian Gray,
but an expiry date never made the milk taste better,
or the dream have longer legs to walk with.
Dreams still die,
a lonely, cruel death,
curled up, vomiting,
in a forgotten corner,
the party still rages on.
One down goes unnoticed,
in this unnatural selection,
when there are still fifty-two up,
and flipping like madmen,
giving out drinks,
and playing games involving thumbs,
which separate us from other animals,
but never from ourselves,
and thats the struggle of life.
The fine walk along the line of,
community and liberty,
falling apart around our ears,
the ones in the know reduced to tears,
or clouding the pain with smoke,
not accompanied by mirrors,
it's real life,
no illusions,
there's no David Blaine or Criss Angel,
and no saints or sinners,
all losers, with no winners,
and that's where life is,
the edge of heaven or hell,
purgatory,
and we'll all waiting,
but it's never long enough,
the Ticktockman's clock is ticking,
a little faster than we'd hoped,
because nobody's only working forty,
not in North America.
Time runs in fast shoes,
before the gun even goes off,
it's cheating us,
but we're cheating ourselves,
so who cares,
that's life,
what's the rush?
We'll all meet end up at the finish line,
one way or another,
no winners,
but new records.
The blank page is scaring me,
it starts staring at me,
begging me for more;
a sexual vixen with an appetite for destruction,
or maybe that was reproduction,
that can't be satisfied with my best efforts.
Sometimes art is begging to come out,
but won't throw you a bone for ideas;
such a fickle, untrained mutt,
slobbering and chewing on your intellectual furniture,
leaving holes in your favourite, comfortable, slippers,
and never retrieving your paper in the lawn.
The mutt needs training,
where's the hound-master?
All those years,you just stopped growing,and when growth stops,you’re dying.Allen said relationships are like sharks,keep swimming forward, or die,and that’s what life is like as well.Remember,life revolves around relationships,they make you who you are today,and who you’ll be tomorrow;they predict your future.Maybe that’s why you had moments,when you were full of greatness,when your character suggests the opposite.