These eyes that drown

The ocean-blue of my eyes are a playground

or a death wish fulfilled.

My soul pours out as a waterfall,

splashing cold, sobering torrents of surface tension

into the warm, still air,

disrupting the peace of  inanimate nature.

Come swim inside of me,

float around until the storm comes,

and then flail in the tidal waves of my consuming hatred

in an attempt to survive and maybe find your way home.

Nobody ever makes it home whole again,

my soul weakens those it does not kill,

and most with mortal wounds as my Spawn always hungers.

I always eat,

always consume,

always am.

You will feel the warm injection of my embrace,

the heat crawls down the back of your neck like the first hit of a

steaming hot shower

launching  pain into your nerves that you tell your soul will soon be fine.

Your soul will stop squirming soon

and it is too late anyways,

as you will crawl home or we will die together,

rotting,

decaying,

returning to our choiceless, freedomless nature.

Behind the glass wall of my eyes is a killing field

many have fallen into it

and I feast on souls.

winners and losers

One day life is going to swallow you whole

it’s going to bite through your weak flesh

and flimsy intentions and ambitions

and I won’t help it or you.

 

You’re both zero-sum games to me,

there is no victory and only

defeats that snatch away all hope

for something better and

meaningful,

like hearing Wagner and waiting for

the climax to come

only for somebody to kick your

record player to shit,

of your iPod dying right before the

 

drop.

 

There’s a Circle somewhere reminding me

that you fucking disappoint me and

it was not always the case,

but most of the time,

it was.

 

I guess you aren’t unlike life itself,

there’s no winning or losing in the end,

because the end removes all value from the game,

and the only way to live is to

enjoy it all

the bad and the good

and the in-between

because it’s all something,

for

now,

until it all rejoins the inanimate

nothingness,

that our souls have sought our entire lives.