The walls glow from a screen

Bouncing its loneliness in grey hues

– The fake life in real colors-

And the room looks like the inside of an egg.

The longing is goo and

Our love is a chicken waiting to die.

I want someone to choose

Me

Everyday.

My bad and my good,

My love.

Age batters me

With a hammer built

For hitting life.

Every swing,

Another chunk of time

Going deeper into the ground.

Your face was red

And eyes tired

And life was draining from your mouth.

We always face the world

Alone,

Don’t we?

We always face the world alone,

Even in a world full of people.

Time is a vacuum,

And the friction of passing

Seconds

Is boredom.

The smiles and eyes

Of the past come

And make loneliness real.

The jade and shudder of plants

Or the overbearing sun are both

Powerless

To fight against this rot.

Your eyes poison me,

They child me,

They eat me.

I am undone

And everything.

I stare at a wall,

My phone,

My soul,

To escape you.

I never do,

and it grows

As you haunt me.

It’s love and lust and

Brokenly beautiful.

It is all I want to know.

I am trapped in my body,

It is not a temple of good or divinity.

I am a ghost tied to my brain with steel

Wool,

That can never leave until the Sleep.

Untouched, unfelt and unhinged.

I roam within this white picket fence searching

For a way out, a way into you or

Some real life.

None comes,

Or you do,

At least.

Life is longest in the slow moments we

Piss down time’s drain

Only to beg for more.

I party to forget the pain,

And it haunts me through the highs,

So I work out to feel better,

But it grips me through the gains,

Until I work and read to move on,

Just to have it shadow me like a ghost.

You hurt them to make them

Go away,

Because you love them and

You’re terrified they will leave you,

Like everybody else.

The night holds us

As we dive into each other,

And nothing outside,

Is.

I die little deaths

in your arms and

Between your legs.

I drown for you,

I work myself to death and

I jump from such great heights.

You catch me and hold me

And save me

One night at a time,

as our hour glasses drip sand.