Sin

We all have our addictions
Sins
A renowned ability to lesion sections of our brains
To avoid guilt or regret in the moment
And choke on it for life
Some happily ever after.

You were the brightest beauty at the Ball,
I the saint capable of heavy sin,
Dark however
Maybe an archangel with phoenix wings
Only capable of flight
And salvation
Every other weekend when my wings grew back.

Mostly,
I ran on the ground,
But occasionally,
I soared.

You rolled the dice twice
Love and snake-eyes,
But you never complained
Cursed your luck
Or mentioned it,
You walked away.

We all walk away,
Whether it’s today, next week, or when you stop inhabiting your body,
We all walk away.

The Nothing People

We are of nothing,

for nothing,

and going nowhere.

 

Tender, plastic kisses mask

a void we cram full of

Valentine's Day bargain love.

 

It's not the dollar's fault,

always searching for a way to move,

like the skin wrapped around your body,

always crawling,

path of least resistance,

going anywhere,

can't fight the monster you can't see or prove,

but can't stop feeling.

 

Our souls are tugged down,

by some inexplicable force,

spritiual gravity,

that never ceases to pull one towards the gutter,

as if anyone needed more convincing of where home was.

 

One could always look in the toilet and see which way life was going,

a man-made compass,

analogy for life in the most appropriate place:

where we fuck, release waste, and become clean,

in a rinse-repeat pattern of little value or specific order.

 

The Nothing People,

the only name fitting enough,

aside from maybe those-who-live-with-a-void-eating-their-guts/mind,

but that was already copyrighted by the cynical me.

 

As a kid I thought there was a way out,

always a next step for progress

-stupidity still reigns,

but the battle changed –

The meaning of life is the journey

and there is no achievement in that,

no victory,

but it's the hand we have been dealt

and have evidently chosen to play rather than fold.

 

The hand is destined to lose,

but like a gambling junkie fronted a few chips,

we can't put our hands down,

even when we are ahead a few,

addicted to the high of fake winning.

 

That's where we live,

with our nothing,

fists of greatness

It was never a question of survival,

at least not for long,

but of progress.

 

Not the progress of condo development and urbanization,

or even a take-back-the-streets or reforestation,

but a human progress.

 

It is easy to survive in a bloated existence.

 

Life is lived out on silver platters

sometimes lined with gold paint

other times shit,

but the inside is all the same.

 

Complacency,

comfort,

but it's of a numb variety.

 

Democraticzed boredom,

CAN YOU HEAR ME?

Boredom has become democratized.

 

It's horrible,

even the working class feel boredom

– beat it out with gunshots to projections of humans –

the quasi-intellectuals in ivory towers

– known it out by the sound of dices rolling,

or kids screaming in ears,

middling worries, or egotistical chest-thumping, about rat populations- 

whatever tries to tickle what can not be tickled.

 

Some say the train derailed after failed revolutions,

or from near-tyrannical governments

– although tyrants don't come like they used to,

in the 1900s or even 1200s –

but there is always choice.

 

Chirk it,

you know you want to,

come on man,

who wants responsibility anyways?

 

It's not your fault you are bored,

– or is your guilt rattling your conscience? –

but then again,

maybe it is.

 

You can blame the culture that force-feeds spectacle

– with their fists –

into every orifice in your body,

leaving you numb, gaping, confused,

but the blame doesn't belong there.

 

You take it all in, 

you open your legs for the wrong pleasures,

you have become a spectacle whore like any other,

and that responsibility

– along with the guilt – 

is yours to bear.

 

You can wake up and become a being worthy of greatness,

or lay back with your metaphysical legs wide open,

waiting for next flashy new toy to fill the void in your life.

new pavement

There are the heroes of passion,

thrown from failures or successes

with an indiscriminate valour

unaffected by the shallow hearts that plague us all.

Life,

for them,

is lived with the bullets of hate

grazing hearts on sleeves

no armour could defend.

Death,

for them,

an indifferent act suceeding

every other event that came before

without special cause for distinction.

The truly great come through bearing

no gift particularly

but in making no demands

brings gifts greater than any else offered.

A friend is not a friend solely because of geography

a connection made through similar hobbies

or one night of great intimacy or affection conversation.

Pause.

Examine your connections in the world

and then despair,

because only despair is applicable

when life is compared to this ideal of great friendship.

Who are you,

and when did you stop caring,

or calling?

The two-way street analogy is out-of-season,

not out-of-touch,

and while South-bound is a traffic jam,

the North,

a lane to nowhere,

fast,

appears as new pavement.

This song

Of all the things you pushed on me,
I understood it the least.
I did not have the capability to learn it
Nor you to teach it,
And nothing more must be said of us.
A amethyst on our once-collective mantle
where the fireplace has long ceased to be alive
An oold apartment,
Musty
Sleazy
In the heart of the old world in Sudbury
Is now abandoned of the emotion that once exploded it to so many lives and demises that any sort of count is impossible.

Hollow ppl may reside there with our skeletons
They are puppets in comparison.

Pant hangs onto the walls,
Although for dear life,
From the wars we waged,
With each other, the outside world,
And inside.

There’s a love laid to rest in that casket that has halved my being,
And crippled you.

A puppet walks on,
Clunky and awkward as puppets do,
And the old ghosts stalking are left feeling pity in place of anger.

How life is lived

Incisors too small to chew through it,
Loneliness leading to desperation,
Humans ill-equpiied to deal with souls that can never touch,
Always bounded by their bodies.

A body is a cage for the soul,
And don’t let Foucault,
Or anyone else,
Tell you otherwise.

Life is lived on the edge of happiness,
Ever fleeting and always on the horizon,
Beams of light occasionally lick the edge of the mountain range,
Dancing on the Ocean of Separation
But are gone too quickly and hard to recall fully,
As true passionate love or those conversations where mouths open and consciousness spews back and forth
Vile, absurd, and absolutely fucking beautiful.

Life is a series of meandering streams of thought too incoherent to be recorded properly,
And better for it.