I’m feeling a bit worn out this morning; is it because the end of the school year approaches? Is it the fact I may be entering into a career soon? Is it about the feeling of losing friends lately, which seems to be weighing on my mind? Is it all the responsibilities I’ve taken on in the last few months, and have committed to? I don’t know.
It’s probably a combination of all of these things and more. Some old feelings of mine have been ignited lately, and some have been extinguished. Who do I miss? Who am I happy to see gone? Who is in the right comfort zone?
Have I lost myself lately? I don’t believe so. I feel like there are more things holding me together. Am I no longer enjoying enough freedom?
Have I been helping people enough lately? Do I do enough in my community? Am I pushing others to reach their potential? Have I been jealous or spiteful of the success of others?
Where is my art? Where are the beautiful blank pages that used to be the dream-catcher for my ideas? Why are they not being filled?
Am I in love? Am I sharing enough of myself with others? Are people sharing enough of themselves with me? Are some people sharing too much of themselves with me? Am I handling too many problems for friends? Is anybody stressing me out? Am I stressing you out?
Am I successful? Am I on my way to some great successes? Or am I on my way to great failure?
Is this stream of consciousness a validation that my life has a purpose, and that I am unique, successful, and intelligent?
Does it matter?